I really didn’t want to get out of bed today. And I am not going to admit when I finally did. I know part of it is that I haven’t been sleeping well. I am lucky if I drift off before 4am. But I also know that it is more than sleep deprivation.
I did get up and I got out of the house. I even did the dishes before we left. Taking a shower helped, but I also know it isn’t that simple either.
Isolation. Feeling like we are still in Limbo. Twelve years looming on the horizon.
I wish I didn’t feel like this.