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the results we have been waiting for

Received a call before noon from my doctor’s nurse. At last, my HCG level is negative, or in lay person speak – normal. I can stop going to the lab every week! I cannot believe it took 12 weeks. It … Continue reading

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tuesday at the lab

Since Monday was a holiday, we were back at the lab today. It went okay overall, but I do not know how 20 minutes can be filled with so much craziness. When we arrived, there was a couple waiting. The … Continue reading

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twenty-four

Ugh! The nurse at my doctor’s office just called. My HCG is down to 24. But 24 is still not <5. So back to the lab I must go next week. She tried to be funny. But this really isn’t … Continue reading

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another monday at the lab

I really hope we get good news this week. I really do think if you stuck a fork in me, I would be done. I really do not know how I could do another week of this. My veins are … Continue reading

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one visitor leaves another returns

It has been a tough week. Monday at the lab was my worst experience there to date. I really wasn’t sure I was going to make it out of there without passing out, but somehow I did. They had to … Continue reading

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no results

I gave in and called my doctor’s office this afternoon around 4 0’clock. I hate waiting, and I know not knowing the results stresses me out. I spoke with a woman named Lupe, who pulled up my file and said … Continue reading

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i am the maid

I think I have figured it out. When B says he believes his parents have accepted me, he may be right, although it is not as their daughter-in-law – but as the maid (one who is overpaid and not very … Continue reading

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holding on tightly

Freaked out a little tonight. I had a cup of peppermint tea around 5:30pm, and after I was finished with it, my whole body just felt hot. It was odd. I thought maybe I just needed to lie down, so … Continue reading

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i want my mommy

As I was finishing cleaning the lake cabin yesterday, I took a break and laid down on the couch (I was having headaches on and off, possibly a sign of changes in my hormone levels). As I was lying there, … Continue reading

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i am here

On Monday, that was my reply to the new lab tech, when she asked me how I was. I know she was just trying to break the ice, so to speak. But the words that came out were, “I am … Continue reading

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